Friday 31 January 2014

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Sunday 12 January 2014

I need God-- because I am weak

It was years back,
when I was still a teenager:
lost, free, rebellious...

and hmm... whatever else that you could think of that a teenager is.

I went to church, not really for worship,
but..
"just because" I felt like it.

Perhaps I was searching for something?
(what people would often say: The "Truth"?)

I'm not sure if I'm glad I went,
but there's something that really shot me like an ST bullet just went through me and; I get that burning feeling so deep and all.

That day, I heard someone saying that:

"Our strongest point could always be our weakest point."

...

At that time, I didn't really understand what it truly meant-
I did understand what this statement was..
but I underestimated it.

Because why?

It happened to me.

And the irony is--

Exactly the statement itself.

I won't want to mention what really happened, but to make it simple-
There was a point in time where I was so confident in myself that I wouldn't do such a thing; and in fact, I probably looked down on people who did them.

I will not mention what this "thing" is, but I'll leave it to you to imagine what it could be.

I would label them (who did those things) as someone I wouldn't be.

 And the truth is..

I was wrong.

TOTALLY wrong.

I became one of them..

People (like me) underestimate what the devil is really actually capable of- and then it hits you when you're totally not aware.

The devil will challenge you on the point that you really thought was your strongest.

And then he gets delighted when you've lost and failed to prove yourself.


People get so confident in the things that they believe they are strong in- but in fact, that's when they become weak.
They become weak when they get too confident in something thinking that they would never fail in those points that they are strong at.

I've learnt my lesson -- but it doesn't change the fact that I've done it.
And it haunts me every time that I think about it.

But now I know, how much I really need God in my life.
And it is because I am weak, and I want to humble myself to seek for guidance and to lead me not into temptation, but to think of WWJD.

~~~

This thoughts suddenly occurred to me... because this year, 2014.
I was so determined that I want to think of WWJD (What Would Jesus Do) before anything else--
But I seem to be constantly failing, always leaded into temptation.

And that's what reminded me of the earlier statement.
"Our strongest point could always be our weakest point."

I THANK GOD FOR HE IS A FORGIVING GOD.
and because He loved us so much, He actually gave His only begotten Son, to live the same life as us (much worse life than us in fact) so that He could experience the pain and suffering we go through. And it was all because of

Love